My mother in law took me to my first out patient doctors appt this morning. All was going ok. Got to the doctors, they drew some blood and I threw up. Probably not the type of news you wanna here, but it's part of the process. Some days I just wanna shut down, go to sleep and hope tomorrow will be better. Lately my thoughts have been swirling. Mostly around mortality. My mom was 15 years older than I am now when she passed away. It's tough not to think about this. I also think about what the doctor said before I got released. We're looking to increase your life by 30 - 50 years and not 5. I just keep thinking what if I never got that bone marrow biopsy in late august. It's tough to get the what if questions out of my head.
Life changing events don't come around every day. I'm not saying that I'm happy this happened to me nor would I ever want to go through this ever again, but this has been my biggest challenge and I love challenges. I can't wait for everyone to see me when this is done. My life is going to be so different, but for the better.
Your positivity has helped get you to this point. Keep it up! And thank you for sharing your experience. You have touched many lives by being so open with yours!
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