Now that I'm back in the hospital and have had about 10 hrs to get acclimated a lot of my feelings from my last hospital stay are coming back. The big feeling is helplessness. And what I mean by that is I'm a control freak. I want to be in control of whatever situation I'm in. I also want to help affect family and friends in a positive way. But when I can't be home to help my wife out, that takes a lot away from me. Or if I can't be there for a friend or someone in my family it drives me nuts. I know, I always seem so even keel. Ha ha.
There hasn't been a time when I couldn't control or at least have the ability to control a situation. This is going to be the new normal for a while.
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